So! Today is a new and busy busy day. Today I get to pick up my daughter from pre-k because she was at her dads house since Saturday. It's my turn this week for the short week since we split custody 50/50. I live about 20 mins away from her school and probably will have to get gas on my way because my car is used by my mom because my dad has one car.

*

I dont have a lot of time, but so much on my mind. I still need to shower, get dressed, get my d's drink and snack ready so we can go to the library and the park afterwards. After that, when we get home, I have to make lunch and hopefully manage some time to read a chapter for my science class, and get online before I head to that class for an online class that I need to be online on video chat.

*

Our custody arrangement is both good and bad at times. It's good because I get time to myself to study or relax at the bookstore or meet friends for coffee. I'm a homebody though... But our custody arrangement can be bad because after she leaves, I dont know what to do with myself, so usually I just mope around, doing nothing, or study like crazy. But whatever I'm doing, I end up alone at night, and alone in bed. My D has her own room but we share the same bed. I actually look forward to going to bed with D.

*

Tomorrow I start my new job which is about an hour away. Very scared! My car isn't the most reliable transportation, and the work is kind of well...dirty. I'm going to be working in a medical center for the....older generation. I became a cna over the summer because my plan was to become an RN, so I figured since I was unemployed, that it would be easy to find a job, and would be worth the experience.

*

Well, now I don't know if I want to go to nursing school. I agunize about this daily, which is also another reason why I started this blog. I'm hoping through writing I can pin point what I really want to do with my life. I am also hoping with this job I can see whether or not I can stand the medical field. I'm scared. I dont want to worry about this anymore! I just want a career! I want to have my own place (since I split with my hubby, I have lived with my 'rents), have a reliable car, and just live, travel, love, and be happy.

*

When I was with my hubby I was an education major, so teaching is always an option, I have also thought about accounting. I have never taken an accounting class, but I feel the field is better than just getting a business degree, and I like numbers, I like math. Maybe I should become a math teacher! lol. This is difficult. But I really enjoy science, maybe a science teacher? See! I'm crazy.

*

Sometimes I try to not worry about it by thinking this semester just started and and I have until May to figure out what I'm doing. But really I don't because I have to study for the nursing program entrance exam. Ahh! I need help!

*