Sunday Sunday

Set it Sunday

Set it

This week I will spend more time on my studies and not go out with the following: Friends, my boo, family members, no one.

Blogging from my new phone!

Yay! Go me! Finally I get to have an awesome phone with internet. Who ever actually reads this blog must think it's absolutely archaic to finaly have a phone this late with internet. I totally agree, but ladies and gentlemen, I have finally arrived! Oh yes.

It's saturday night, my boo is at work and my little girl is at her dads. Guess what i'm doing? If you thought laundry you are correct. Congrats. It's also a cleaning the upstairs including the bedrooms and solo movie night. I'm not complaining, I actually like weekends like this. My work week which includes working every other weekend, is hectic enough. I just wish I could cancel my day planned with my boo tomorrow so I cab catch up on studying and homework (which I was suppose to do today but that slipped through my hands some how.

Enjoy this random saturday night cellular post!

Highlights from the week

Highlights and insights into my week. I did not have very much time this week to blog, so I am trying to post things that come to mind about the week. This is an experiement....

•  I am off this weekend!! Yay! So excited. This was a rough week at work. I was on my own without my training buddy. Left some hospital beds up too high, didn't get enough linens, or have the hospital gowns ready when needed. Was it that bad that I didn't have wash vloths in the room? No, but my training buddy was always around saying, "what, you didn't warm up the wash cloths"? Geez!Yesterday was a better day than the day before because I wasn't so rushed for time and feeling like a dump idiot that isn't competent enough to do a pretty stupid job. The thing that makes me think is why those two days were so bad. I was working alone all week and I didn't have any problems, but I was working with different residents in different rooms.

• I made a boo boo with my boo. I guess I was complaining about him with my coworkers and they basically told me to get rid of him and find a better guy. Well, one of their complaints was that he doesn't pay for stuff all the time, and doesn't take me on dates and blah blah blah. So I told my boo. Big mistake. I thought me telling him they said something about him would be better than me complaining to him again about the stuff he does that I don't like. It really upset him, and made him feel bad. And at that point I was kind of considering leaving him. (That was before our nice date this Monday.) I still feel bad about it. Its even gotten to the point where my co-workers ask me what my plans are and they ask who is going to pay or if he's going to want me to pay the tip. I guess the question is do I really mind paying the tip, or paying for my cocktail because he doesn't want to pay for it...ugh. I kind of can't stand that. I'm fine leaving a tip, but paying for a cocktail? Basically I can't have a drink when we go out because he won't splurge. I get water instead of coke, trying to make it cheaper for him... I am basically confused as hell. All I know is I love him.

• I'm dropping one of my classes. It's the one class I have on campus and the reason I am dropping it is because I slept through the first exam. It was when I first started my job. I got home after midnight from work and worked at 7am the next day so i could make it to the class on time, so then I decided to take a quick nap and slept through my class, great huh? So i will not be getting my A.A. this May. My dad is upset about it but I can just take an online class over the summer or another time since I'm planning on starting a LPN program sometime over the summer or Oct. I'm not worried about it. It's not like I'll never take one class to finish my A.A.

• I have a spending problem. In this past week I have bought a new laptop, a smartphone, a machine that finds blood pressure and pulse for you, and etc. I really do have an issue with money. I recently was able to start a savings account that I have not touched and will not touch unless its an emergency. Maybe I need to find a book at the library, NOT the bookstore, since this week I spent over $100 there, about spending. Maybe my new Personal Finance book can give me the right messege.

Ra Ra Ra, I want your love!

I ended up having a great day with my boo yesterday. It was rocky in the beginning but that was becasue my car was in the shop, getting an oil change, which evolved into new breaks, flushing two systems, and new wind shield wipers.. Anyway, I feel less worried driving 100 miles to and from work a day. (It's almost 100, maybe 40 something miles 1 way, and I get home at 12:30 am each shift.)

I planned yesterday for a day of studying and an oil change, with a dinner and movie date with my boo in the evening. In all reality, none of that happened except for the oil change. I woke up way too early than normal, so I felt like I had a hangover from lack of sleep. Before I left my house to do some running around, the car and grocery shopping my mom wanted me to do, I had my morning cigarette. I am only mentioning this cigarette because it led to more fun and excitement, that pulled me away to my important daily goals. While I was smoking, my hands were unsteady and shaking, I felt like all my blood was rushing toward my feet, and was worried about falling to the floor, since that almost happened before. So as soon as that happened I went inside and had a bowl of cereal and started to feel better.

I left the house with three goals in mind, 1. Get the oil change, 2. Get the groceries for the crazy lady, and 3. Go to one of those walk in clinics at Walgreens and CVS.

I was on a quest. I stopped at 3 different locations before I got to a store that had the clinic inside, and thats when I realized that I didn't have my insureance card...GREAT! So I drove home to get the card and call the closest Ford dealership about their prices on an oil change. So I ended up going to a CVS, waited for close to 25 mins, spent $45 on things I "needed," and didn't get any treatment because the nurse practitioner, who was very nice, said that the type of testing involved with that is something they don't do. Thankfully, she did't charge me.

So off I went to the Tires Choice and Total Car Car (who I have most of my work done by), and waited for them to come back with a long list of things accounting to $1000 that needed to be fixed. Suprisingly, they didn't and said that they recommend two flushings, breaks and power stearing. Then because I asked about the breaks, and since the two in the back were basically worn out, I had those done as well. Not bad. Everything in total was under $400.

Boo met me at the car place and we had lunch at Moe's (really good), and went to best buy to get...tada...my new laptop. I spent less money than I was planning on spending, but just found out by using skype that this laptop doesn't have a microphone...wtf? I thought that with the computer having a web cam, the microphone was there too, but I guess not. I don't have any complaints. The computer is a Dell, ice blue, 3mb RAM, and about 250 MB memory. I was planning on getting the computer with the best deal and the most amount of RAM, but I liked this one, and the price was great!

After that we went back to my house, set up the computer and watched tv. Since my moms cooking sucks we went to Publix, bought some food for dinner and relaxed.  Overall a very good day with boo. I really love him. OOOh! And I forgot about the foot rub he gave me, hehehe.

This week was a little hard on us because he's so against me smoking again, and I told him what my co-workers said about him, (wasn't good), which is such a big mistake. I really wish I hadn't have done that. The always say I should dump him and have some fun while I'm young. Find a guy with money, who can take me out all the time. I don't want stuff like that. Boo is great with my daughter, he's in college, and is always there for me. He is my absolute best friend and such a handsome, tall guy. I have my moments when I get tired of him and not being established but neither am I. I don't even have the time or the patience to be wined and dined.

Love, what is it good for?

Valentine's Day, the day for lovers, roses, jewelry, and chocolates. Me and my boyfriend (boo) have been together a little over 2 years. He is younger, he's 21 and I'm 24. We met when we were working together and became texting buddies. We went shopping together, to lunch together, would hang out after our classes together, then I realized how handsome he is and we have been  together ever since. It was a little difficult at first, when I was deciding if I should persue him, I was worried about the reaction I would get from family and friends, especially with my ex. I didn't want to be the bud of his jokes.

The age hasn't been a problem. I didn't care that he wasn't old enough to drink, that just meant I would have a DD. He's doesn't drink, doesn't smoke, and doesn't do drugs. He is funny and social, is honest and sweet. The only thing that is bothering me right now is the fact that it's Valentine's Day and I can't spend the night with him.He can't come to my house because my parents are absolutely against that since I have a younger brother and sister, who are above the age of 16, but still they do not allow it. But I don't even think I'm allowed in my boo's house... That drives me crazy. Then he told me his best friend, who is a year younger than him, is getting a hotel on the beach for him and his girlfriend. And it just sucks that we can't have any alone time. Love making time. We can't afford to move in together, and I need a baby sitter.

I don't know what to do. When we spend time together everything is nice, today I am seeing him, and I can't wait. I just worry that I am either wasting my time with him and things will not come out as we planned. We plan to have our own place, we already know what kind of pets to get, but I worry it won't ever happen.

From the very beginning he said I love you and would ask me to marry him out of nowhere, several times a week. For almost two years he would ask me when we'd go on a walk and get down on one knee and ask, with no ring. Or through a text message. On the phone, giving me a hug, and etc... but when I actually thought that maybe it's ok to be engaged for a while, he said we should wait to move in together. wtf? I was mad. Everytime he had asked me to marry him I said we had to wait to finish school. I felt lost when he said what he said. I thought as though I would be 30 before we would get married, which I guess is ok. It just frightens me. I'm my boo's first love, and sometimes I feel like I'm training him for the next person, but I guess you have to make risks in life.

I just hope everything works out. I think we complement each other. I'm bad with money and saving, and he's great and always has extra money set aside. I'm impulsive and go into distress easily, and he goes with the flow and doesn;t seem to get fazed by much. These are all qualities I like, which keep me from following the suggestions from my friends which say that I need an older man.

Whore for Books!

I'm a nutter for books! Spending time at Barnes and Noble is one of my fav things to do, however, I have this problem. I am trying to save money and a long time ago I noticed I was spending money on books and not reading them. I have since then started visiting the library.

D loves the library, they have toys, puzzles, doll houses, and lots of fun stuff for kids. My favorite things are the free books, and the friends of the library section where you can buy paperback books for either one to three dollars, old magazines are twenty-five cents, kids books are also twenty-five cents! So really I can have a book/magazine/children book shopping spree!

These are the books that I snagged for under $20 with the magazines and children books~

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  Farm Fatale by Wendy Holden

• Size 14 is not fat either

 

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  Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot

 

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  Queen of Babble Gets Hitched by Meg Cabot 

 

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  Little Earthquakes by Jennifer Weiner

 

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  Size 12 is Not Fat by Meg Cabot

 

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  Swapping Lives by Jane Green

 

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  Every Boy's Got One by Meg Cabot

 

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  The Lovely Bones by Alice Sebold

• Personal Finance by Jack R Kapoor, Les R Dlabay, Robert J Hughes

Books to me are like an unexplored territory and act as medals won for conquering the pages that are shown off under my tv. I like chick lit. Lately I have read other genre's like Dan Brown novels and Dean Koontz.


My boyfriend doesn't understand my love of books. I think it comes from spending time with my cousin Anna when I first moved to Florida. She was older, had a part time job at a book store, had a cute boyfriend, and was happy, everything I wanted to have. I thought she was so cool!

In her bed room she had this beautiful wood bookcase with glass doors which showed off all her novels. She is an Anne Rice fan, an auther I have never attempted to read but at least I can find a good book amongst many because all of the books I read are usually pink, purple, have a cool cover.

I really recommend calling your local library to see if they have a section for selling books and magazines. It is definently better than spending $13 to $18 on a novel. The magazines I love! I also noticed a while ago that I was spending way too much on magazines every month. I'm a magazine whore! Especially about health or gossip, like People and Self.

My progress 1/6/10

This week was not as stealthfully productive as hoped. I need to be able to finish what needs to be done for my statistics class, public speaking class, and of course my physical science class. Because of work and being unproductive, nothing is really getting done, but I am positive I can change. Nobody is perfect, and change can happen,  I just can't give up to shape things in my life and the things about me that need tweaking. I have the rest of today and some of tomorrow (V-day) to catch up on school work.

 I am messy! and usually a lone body, so after I dropped off D at pre-k, I called a friend and met her for coffee at my fav fav place! Barnes and Nobles. :-) That time had been planned to study, but it was nice to talk to someone who isn't a friend from work or my boo. I love those people to death but I need more, just finding the time is a problemo. I have one more week of orientation and then I can start getting my own sets of rooms to work with each evening. Right now at work I'm at the point of splitting my trainers sets and having those patients to myself without any help. That started yesterday which was good! I didn't really have any problems. And I managed to spend some time Friday morning cleaning before I had to pick up D from school, which was also planned time to study. I am lucky this week because I have the weekend off, and since D goes to her dads every weekend, it gives me time to catch up on school work. Next week won't be so easy since I only have Wednesday off and Monday. But Wednesday will give me time to spend the day with D since she will be at my house.

Me and my ex have a shared custody (verbal) agreement. He gets her every Saturday at noon and she comes to my house wither Tuesday or Wednesday depending on who had her 4 days the previous week. So it equals out that way. D loves her dad, she loves going there, and I don't blame her. Her dad lives with his parents too, and his mom is the one who I think does all the playing with her. My ex would take her to theme parks around the area and take her to Sea World too, but on the day to day basis I think his mom does the real care, but I could be wrong. Ds stories change day to day. I'd ask her who played with her yesterday and she would say mom...umm.. his mom (which makes me jealous), and then I'd ask her again later and she wouls say her dad. Asking her is the only comfortable way to find out whats going on in her other house. Her dad and I don't talk, or at least I don't feel comfortable enough to talk to him because it's easy to sound accusitory when asking "so do you spend time with our daughter, or are you playing video games all day after work like you used to when we were married, or together, we're still legally married.

Since I'm talking about one guy I should talk about the other, my boo, my sweetheart, my younger boyfriend. I confessed to him last night that I had started smoking cigarettes again. He was asking all the time if I was because I would get off the phone with him when I got to work even though I was 20 minutes early, or I would call him on a break and he would ask, "why are you outside? It's freezing!," and I said "No reason, just wanted to." He was upset I was lying to him for a week, even though he was pretty sure I had started again. It was easy to hide it from him since we haven't seen each other for 9 days. My schedual is busy with work, my classes, and our days off don't match up at the moment. But at least I got this weekend off, which is great considering I didn't have to request the day off.

I'm really excited about tomorrow!

Blah, Blah, Blah

Welcome to Blah, Blah, Blah Mondays!!!


A new week has started, and I am doing better than I thought. I missed set it Sunday, but since today is the day after, I don't feel too bad.

What this week brings for me~ I'm not sure which is better, going day to day with what I plan to do, or just listing what needs to get done this week, like Cheryl from Take a Second Glantz. But here is what I need to do.

Statistics:

Finish reviewing Chapter 1

Complete Chapter 1 HW

Take Chapter 1 Quiz

Start learning Chapter 2

Start work on Chapter 2 HW

Public Speaking:

Start writing Informative and Demonstrative Speeches

Work ahead, and complete chapter quizzes for class

Make appt to do speeches via webcam.. (lame)

Read Chapter 8

Post on discussion board assignment.

Physical Sciences:

Read chapter 4 and 5

Go to class

Bring tape recorder

Get notes from someone for missed class

Personal:

To post 10 or 20 minute blogs throughout the week

Spend Valentine's Day with Boo

To bring Thank You card to my mentor at work

To only talk on the phone when driving to work

To refrain from bumming cigarrettes off co-workers

Start waking up early to do stuff for school

Drink more coffee

Research if a lot of coffee is really bad for you

Watch my snacking at work and home

Dont eat when I get home from work after midnight

Anywho, it is a long list. And I look forward to crossing off as many as I can when the week is done.

So ten minute blog starts NOW..

My car wouldn't start the other day, had to spend close to $500 in repairs, well some of it was for a new battery. But anyway it was exhausting.

One of my patients died last night. She was a nice woman who was really suffering. I cried when I was told she was going to die. I knew it was coming, I was just scared. But I held her hand as she passed. But I was actually too scared to take care of the body. I didn't really want to touch her. So luckily since I'm still "orientating," my mentor took care of her.

I am learning alot from working at a nursing home and I am looking into nursing schools, whether they are private schools or not. I was against going to a private school for nursing, especially if the school wasn't regionally accredited, but now I am thinking more of when I can start working as an LPN or RN.

When I started this blog, I didn't know whethor or not I should work full time and go to school for accounting or finish my degree in education, or the last or, nursing. The place I work is really great with schedualing around school. If I want to go to nursing school, they can put me on a weekend 12 hour schedual for Saturday and Sunday, work an 8hr shift during the week, which comes together as 32 hours but get paid for 40 hours. Isn't that great! The health benefits are better than a lot of places. And its very affordable since D is on her dad's insurance.

Another question that comes up then is, do I get divorced finally when I have been at my work for the 90 days for the health insurance? Or do I stay married and stay on my husbands insurance? The place that I work at is about an hour away. Do I stay there a year to make sure I am settled, so I won't lose the insurance all of a sudden? I have too many questions and too many problems to try to solve.

Alright! Time is up. Need to start working on Statistics before I get ready for work and drive my little cars engine out.

10 minute blog!

Ok, so I have 10 minutes before I have to put my scrubs, oh and a bra on, before I pick up D from pre k. I am writing this because I have things on my mind.

1. Do I pay 20,000 to become an LPN at a private school, and then 22,000 to go to their RN program?

2. How can I focus to make sure I am getting all the things done that I need for my classes because of this job  am behind, its not just the job, but anyway.

3. I feel guilty today is my 1st day of the week with D (she has been at her dad's since Saturday), and as soon as I pick her up from school I have to drop her off at home, and dash to work, in another side of the bay.

Option for 1: I could apply to the Rn and LPN prgram at the community college that is in my area, its cheaper, but the distance is just as far for the LPN program. The RN program will be at a location that is about 20  minutes from my house. So if I try to do this, I need to really study hard for the entrance exam because that is the only reason I didn't get into the RN or LPN program last semester. Which brings me to problem 2.

Option for 2: Do I stay up after work to study? Maybe when D is at her dad's house so it doesn't hit me hard during the day becaus I have to wake up early to driver her to her pre-k which is half way between my house and my ex's house, but is still 13 miles away.

Alright! Thats all the time I have for today, if anybody at all reads this, please I need suggestions...oh and I looked at cheaper tech schools and they don't have openings for LPN until August of 2011. Is it worth the money to start right away??